wow --- i'm actually on here writing ... its been over  two months ... wow life is crazy ... its summer now though and things are getting calmer in regards to work at least.. the dorm is quiet most times now ..the days aren't filled with as much hectic moments nor with the feeling of great responsibility i always seemed to have when my girls were here... i do miss them though... i miss the laughter and fun .. but this place of peace is nice as well .. spent most of today by the pool .. it finally opened last weekend .. yay!! well just wanted to say hi to all those who occasionly get on here to read my blogs .. always keep in mind that things will change and life will move on no matter where your at .. in moments of despair or joy ... keep bringing light to others lives- star

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4...alcohol.. drowsiness ... honking..(i just came from driving school and this is the book we studied 4th line )

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What can you touch?nothing..but if i was a little longer it would be the window to the computer room for the dorm

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? Braves game today ... i think we might have beat the cardinals YAY

4. Without looking, guess what time it is: 11:40

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 11:25

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?  nothing there is silence in the dorm .. what a beautiful sound

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?  awhile ago when i was coming into the dorm from my driving school 

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at? nan's xanga

 9. What are you wearing?  black pants grey turtleneck and my unmentionables

10. Did you dream last night? i think so

11. When did you last laugh? just now.. jenn and emma is all i have to say 

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? cork board with all sorts of stuff clock and notes and drawings from the girls

13. Seen anything weird lately? i work in a dorm filled with international teens ranging from 13 to 19 oh yeah i see weird stuff

 14. What do you think of this quiz? i love telling stuff about me so i love it 

15. What is the last film you saw? girl interuppted

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?  i don't think its considered buying but i would adopt Jose Carlos and then i would buy my two little sisters any type vehicle they wanted and i would get a personal 3 month cruise for my mom to visit alaska and set some aside for my 3 girls (darby, regin and jadia) for thier college and i would get dad a shed for all his tools so he could wood work till his little heart was content and i would help jamie and mark pay for "anything" they might need help paying for in the near future.. and i'm sure i would do something special for Evan but i don't know what exactly it would be

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know...hmm this is hard cuase i don't know what all people on here do and do not know about me .. umm most won't knwo that i tried on colored contacts and i'm thinking about gettiong them to have to play with my eye color .. yeah i'm cool

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? i would make everyone think and drive like me .. NO i'm just kiding  

19. Do you like to dance? depends on where i'm at and who i am with and what kinda dancing

 20. George Bush: pretty much a great guy ... wish he would actually do somthing about american people being robbed blind by gas companies and oil people though

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? chloe noel

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? soren pierce

23.Would you ever consider living abroad? HECK YEAH!! I know a couple of places i would move to right now .. especially with this nasty weather that just moved in

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? you finally made it huh!! been waiting for you to see me face to face ... now lets talk about some of that stuff you were so confused about

 25. 4 people who must also do this meme in THEIR Xanga: if they ever check it scotty, steven, mom and lindsey(your not on the ever check it list by the way ) 

hey i said i would do this so i'm gonna update before a month is up .. this weekend i was off so i went home ... and found yet again that my family is a riot and way tooo busy... Nicole flew out on saturday to go visit her man out in cali and then we had jadia's (my neices) b-day party which dad and i ran around on saturday afternooon to get stuff for .. then of course it was real late by the time Evan ( who went to the party as well) got back cuz we stayed and watched madagascar with them ... then the rest of my family mom, dad and nan got up on sunday and left to go to forrest city for a funeral so i was stuck all alone.. well the scarff family took pity and i went over there for lunch but since i had taken almost all of evan's time up on saturday i didn't stay long .. plus i got an afternoon nap went i went home to a QUIET house ... then after church the scarff's and i went to pizza hut for dinner... had fun hearing some great stories about evan and the family... then Joe and heather and evan and i went to watch "failure to launch" .. to be honest i probably wouldn't have gone to see it but heather wanted to and asked if we would join them but once there it was the funniest movie i had seen in a while.. i thought evan and i were going to roll out of our seats... there were just several things that were incredibly funny and retarded... i was glad we had gone and i think that heather and joe enjoyed it as well .. well for all out there that might actually read this i have a question... if you want to get to know some one better and both of you are real shy when you first are getting to know some one what is the best way to go about it ?? that is the case with heather .. she seems really cool but we are both real quiet around each other and unlike her mom who will always talk to me and her dad whom i found common intrest to talk with about and then even with her husband cuase we both are outsiders to the family so we are still hearing new stories and such and we are both clutz ... i just don't seem to have as much in common to talk with her about but i really would like to get to know her.. well if any advice is available i would appreciate it ... thanks a million to the one person who actually might take the time to read about my crazy life .. sorry to bore everyone else

Have an incredible day where ever you are!!!

wow i can't believe that i haven't been on here to type in so long... things have happened life has been good bad and ugly and that is just in this week alone... but since my last post i have had good news and bad news ... normal life and life altering things happen... my mind has been streched my heart filled and broken and i have found that living life in two places is one of the hardest things on ones emotions... things here at school are ok... had one of the roughest days in a LONG time yesterday... just many crazy things ... but before that point i would have to say things here have been great...and now things have all been worked out and things are back to wonderful...  having Jenn here is wonderful and i can honestly say there is any one i know of that i would rather work under than Ellen Chezik ... she is one of the most precious woman in the world and i LOVE her so much .. she is also one of the strongest woman i know second only to my Momma who is by far my role model for life... things in Nashville are INCREDIBLE ... in fact i'm headed there tonight...YAY!! ...for two reasons first its jadia's b-day and we are having a party!! and secondly cause i get to see my sweetie tonight ... I can't wait.. i know that it hasn't even been a full week but ive missed him and can't wait to get one of his incredible hugs.. well guess i'll tell you more later because this is already so long.. hopefully it won't take me as long to get on here as last time